Taurus puts us in the second house of the zodiac, ruling income, money, and self-esteem. And new moons are initiatory, summoning us to bring forth a more advanced version of ourselves. We can’t exactly do that if we are still holding on to past habits and behaviors, old ways of thinking and relating to the world. Oftentimes when we feel as though we are stuck, it’s because we are holding on to something for longer than is needed. Let it go. Open yourself up to your own intuition and see where it takes you.
The personal struggle I have with letting things go and surrendering to the realities of this life is that my intuition and my inner critic get tangled up together, like some sordid affair of the gut. Is it butterflies of excitement? Or is my anxiety telling me something is going to go terribly wrong? I have a difficult time discerning between the two. Our masculine society teaches us to act in accordance with our thoughts instead of our feelings. We like to demonize the feminine parts of us, tucking them away into those same dark recesses of our souls. Whether you identify a he, a she, or a they we all have these same opposing yin and yang qualities to contend with, to attempt to balance within ourselves.
Chasing Shadows
Peter Pan chased his shadow all the way back to the same nursery that he left years before. That’s exactly what happens to us as well. The Universe will keep presenting us with those same lessons until we finally learn them. Looking back on my own life, I can see where I should have walked away from certain things long before I actually did. We can be quite bullheaded (Hello Taurus Season!) in our efforts to progress our lives. The Page of Cups Reversed is the tarot card of this “Peter Pan Syndrome,” as it is called in some circles. The definition is essentially an adult who does not want to grow up and instead remains a child for the rest of their lives, and it is the clearest sign of emotional immaturity.
We won't grow up. We will never grow a day And if someone tries to make us! We will simply run away.
I am pretty much a professional at running away from things. I’ve gotten much better at trying to run through them, both literally and figuratively, although I still mess this up. It’s not about getting it right. It’s about getting along in this life with the least amount of damage possible. The pandemic forced many of us to slow down and rethink the paths we’ve been meandering along, something I probably would have never done on my own. I hustled for so long that I forgot how to rest. I forgot that we need rest in order to gain back the energy to keep pushing. Much like the ocean isn’t defined by its waves, we are not defined by our own ups and downs. We are, however, responsible for bringing some light into those dark places, if nothing but for our own evolution.
a song to walk with you during this season of your life
Mad love, Jenna
