The New Scarlet Letter
I wanted to belong so badly that I lost myself. That’s what shame really does to a person. It coerces us to conform, which in turn causes us to forget that certain parts of us exist. Humans are predisposed to want to be in community, to belong to a tribe of people with like-minded values. […]
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Stuff It
I had no fear. I hadn’t learned to fear anything yet. As a child I was interested in learning about everything. I climbed trees, and did so many other things that I would never even attempt now. As a child, you don’t know to be scared of things. You cry when you are sad. You […]
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My Turn to Speak
I hate speaking in public. It’s like putting yourself out there onto a stage of judgement. Everyone just stares at you with their mouths gaping open. I know it’s only five other girls, but it still scares the ever living shit out of me. My stomach is in knots. I feel like Eminem’s character in […]
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To Run Or Not to Run?
Lacing up my running shoes for the first time in over ten years was daunting. I knew that the first run was going to be an incredibly humbling experience. I walked most of it, and I ended up crying. Not a painful ‘I twisted my ankle’ sort of cry, but a lethargic release of pent […]
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I Hate the 4th of July
A Tale from a My Career in the Restaurant Industry The week of Fourth of July is the slowest week of the year for any restaurant that is not on the beach. This is also the time of the year where the front of the house staff is there the latest and works the hardest. […]
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The After Burn
There was a full moon out, and it was Friday the 13th, 2018. Never one to be superstitious, I really didn’t think much of it, until the fireball.
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Becoming Jenna
I am only figuring out myself as I am being thrust into the world as this new person. I am only just meeting her for the first time. I couldn't imagine having to do that on a worldwide stage.
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The Eyes Have It All
The eyes show fear — Fear from the soul hidden deep within, Fear from the tainted life itself, Fear from your own true being. The eyes show content — Content contained in your heart, Content flowing freely through your veins. The eyes show sadness — Sadness vaporized by the mind, Sadness creeping out of the […]
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Whoa! How Did I Get Here?
Six months ago I was in the middle of the deepest part of my depression. I remember crying into Ben's arms one day, feeling like I no longer wanted to live. But somewhere deep inside kept faith alive that I would come out on the other side. I just had to trudge through the pain for a little longer.
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I Cried in My Paper Dress
"All disease begins in the gut." - Hippocrates
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