On Friday, January 6, 2023 at 6:09 PM EST our first Full Moon of the year will peak in Cancer. Full moons tend to show us the natural apex of a particular cycle, making this the perfect time for reflection. This particular full moon being in Cancer makes it extra special due to the fact that this is a Chariot year. The Chariot in tarot is ruled by Cancer, and could very well indicate a time of massive shedding on a collective level, of harvesting around what those crab shells are covering, of bringing those things that we’ve hidden away back out into the open. This can create create some tension in the body. You know you are done, but the shell still wants to remain in tact. These types of emotional pulls can come up when we push against those things that we fear the most. More often than not I find that whatever it is tends to be not as scary as we make it out to be in our heads, that sometimes we need to tell our brains to shut the fuck up in order to hear the calling from our own hearts.
We had our corresponding Cancer New Moon on June 28, 2022, which started us off on this journey throughout these watery realms. Cancer rules the 4th house, the house that rules the home, the family, and the ancestors. It’s the house that helps us to get back to our roots as it were, to relate back to our individual histories. The ruling planet for the archetype of Cancer is the Moon, the planet that likes to brighten up those dark spots in our lives. The invitation is that you carry that torch into the rest of your life, that you cast off those shadows and burdens, freeing yourself to be just that – your Self.
Lessons Learned
As someone who has Cancer in their 10th house, I tend to be emotionally attached to my career and my reputation. This is an aspect of myself that I truly dislike and actively work to improve upon. I would love to be one of those people who doesn’t care what others think, who can look inside of themselves for the answers while ignoring the outside perspective. I have learned that since I have a tendency to get wrapped up in the external, I must find ways to protect my internal. This is where boundaries have proven to be essential in my healing process.
I’ve had to learn how to separate myself from my work. Well, I’m still working on this part. Growing up I was taught that my worth held a direct relationship to my productivity and how much I could accomplish in any given scenario. I looked extremely successful on the outside, but the truth is that I was falling apart on the inside. The more I gave, the more I hated myself. I began to resent others. I became an angry shell of a person, often taking it all out on the wrong people. Hurt people hurt people they say, and it’s true. I did. I was the one at fault there, and it is now my responsibility to become a better, kinder person.
A Reading for the Collective
Kali is the Hindu goddess of destruction, of death, and of ecstasy. “She will destroy all disillusion and bring you face-to-face with your darkest shadows – not to cause anguish, but rather from a deep place of love” (A Yogic Path, Sahara Rose). Much like the Tower in the tarot, this is a liberation that hurts even as it frees, but one we must all confront at some point in our lives. Sometimes it is our own egos that can get in the way of where we want to go, of who we want to be. Kano, the rune of fire, says “the more Light you have, the better you can see what is trivial and outmoded in your conditioning” (The Book of Runes, Ralph Blum). It’s me. Hi. I’m the problem, It’s me.
Mad love, Jenna
Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift, a song for collective healing
